Ease

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So it seems Nick needs to ease back into full activity. He’s had some pain since beginning to fully weight bear. I checked in with Allison and this is normal. Knowing that Allison said it’s ok seems to have put Nick’s mind at ease. He remembers the third lengthening’s drama and worried about his bone collapsing. Even though that lengthening ended traumatically with him breaking his arm and his leg crashing too it was still super successful. Dr. Standard was abel to save his 6cm and make his leg even straighter than it had been.

In addition to finding out that Nicholas could bear weight on Monday, we also found out that he needs another 8 plate, this one in his femur. We are hoping it can wait till the PRECICE rod comes out but it might need to be sooner. His leg just wants to kick out to the side… again and again and again. If it has to be it’s own surgery so be it.

Above you can see Nicholas’s amazing new bone! He needs to focus on hip strengthening exercises pt wise and Dr. Standard also prescribed gait training so I think we need to have a session at the RIAO so Steven can learn what to do or go back to formal therapy close to home. Nick did well at duPont previously. We will work it out.

Of course I am resisting stressing this leg pain myself although I can’t help but feel like I wont be fully at ease till he is walking pain free. I have to knock that thought out. This is a process and I have to let it be what it is. A friend shared the wonderful quote below yesterday and I am trying to let there be room for whatever feelings are present. To acknowledge them and not try to knock the out, but also not stress them. That’s a process too! I also shared this in the support group and it resonated with others as well. Thanks Scott!

“We think that the point is to pass the test or overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don’t really get solved. They come together and they fall apart. Then they come together again and fall apart again. It’s just like that. The healing comes from letting there be room for all of this to happen: room for grief, for relief, for misery, for joy. (10)”
― Pema Chödrön, When Things Fall Apart: Heartfelt Advice for Hard Times